I have a new blog

My new blog is titled A California Girl Meets the Bootheel and can be found at

http://californiakickinit.blogspot.com

Taking A Break

I'm taking a break.  It's all about moving now.  I'm also setting up a new blog to reflect this huge change in my life. When it's ready, I'll post one last time here to point you, my friends, in the right direction.  This house is our new beginning.

Divine Mercy

Haiku My Heart

Musing on moving

I entered into this home selling adventure with high expectations.  The market was strong. Our house, though 38 years old, was well-maintained.  The price was below market value

Buying low and selling high is every home owner's dream.  Equity. That magic word that promises so much.  In our case, it promised a 20% down payment on our next home.  It ensured the payment of two credit card bills.  It promised seed money to get us started on our new adventure in living in Missouri.

Buy low, sell high is a big dream and for a moment, just a short moment, I thought it was ours.  Six weeks later, I am seeing things very differently.

For the last four weeks, I have been discouraged, depressed, frozen in place, and struggling to keep the faith that we are going in the right direction, that God has our back.  Then a few days ago, I found this:

I was immediately struck by a sense of lightness and comfort.  The weight of darkness, that had been bearing down on me, started to lift. The words were so honest and true.  I had absolutely no control over how quickly our home would sell.  I had absolutely no control over the "perfect world" scenario I had written that would have seen us moving by June 1st.  All the little details, that seemed so necessary for success, were suddenly only possibilities and options; they were choices, just choices.    I was being reminded very clearly that living in the here and now was the only way we would get through this big life change.  And when I let go of the hope, the desire, everything changed.

Yesterday we received an offer on our house.  It was low, far too low.  The offered was made by a house flipper so when we countered, we had no expectation of success.  And, we were unsuccessful, as expected.  A house flipper isn't looking for a home. He is looking for an investment. He has no vested interest in our house and unlimited choices available to him.  Strike one.

Today we have two possibilities; no offers yet but some definite interest.  One couple needs to sells their home.  The other couple simply appears to be very interested.  They live in the country and they are moving into town.  Maybe they are downsizing.  So perhaps tomorrow will present us with some happy news.  It would be a sweet moment of timing if it did because tomorrow is Matteo's 1st birthday.  Last year we received the gift of a second grandson.  This year perhaps we will receive the gift of a new future.

His time, not mine

When it comes to selling our house, I believe this is what we need to keep in mind.  We have been on the market for 5 weeks and nothing.  So stressful. I have St. Joseph on speed dial. I pray throughout the day. I know God hears my prayers but he is taking His time. He has a reason but it isn't known to me, not yet anyway.

It's a rollercoaster

Feeling prayerful and hopeful today. Selling a home is such an emotional rollercoaster. I never know how I will feel when I wake up in the morning.