Some love affairs are best never started. If Paul and Julian had never met, three lives would not have been ruined. Paul is an introverted young man, just starting college and trying to rebuild his life after his father, who he idolized, dies. Although Paul is shy, he is also convinced that most people around him are his intellectual inferiors. He is the only person he knows in his middle class life who loves art and poetry. His dream is to become a scientist, perhaps studying the butterflies he has always collected.
Julian is the opposite. From money, he has the assurance and confidence of those who have always been provided for and who know their lives are set up to be a success. He is also convinced that most people around him don't know how to live the life that he anticipates for himself full of beauty and literature. He can dismiss others with a word or even a glance.
When these two encounter each other in college, they are instantly drawn together. Since both are gay, it is not long before they form a romantic relationship. Paul would do anything to please Julian yet he is the dominant one in their lovemaking. Julian takes as a project the task of convincing Paul he is as good a person as Julian sees him. This sets up a relationship where the stakes are constantly being raised as each tries to convince the other that they would do anything for the other and the life they want together.
Unfortunately, that results in their project. They decide to kill someone who deserves to die to seal their love forever. They choose someone who was involved in war atrocities. They spend weeks planning their crime, sure that it cannot fail. Yet after the crime, things do not go as they had planned.
This is a debut novel and was released to great anticipation in many quarters. The author, Micah Nemerever, writes that he was these young men, lonely in so many way, offput by most people he met yet yearning for a relationship that could sustain him. It is also, of course, influenced by such true crime cases as Leopold and Leob and Parker and Hulme. The reader is drawn into the fevered world of these two men and the bad choices they make as a result of their love for each other. This book is recommended for readers of literary fiction.